Rising

What was I once?

But a little girl with nothing to lose

Everything was set before

bright and gleaming

Untouched by the enemy

I could feel my dreams

And know they were real

I knew what I knew

And nobody could stop me

Then I began to break apart

the pieces of myself

Allowed myself to shatter

and become isolated

A heart that could no longer love myself

or anyone around me

A selfish depression

that’s all I remember it as now

A ‘lay in bed all’ period of time

with no purpose

and I thought

well I thought ‘this is it’

I knew I would never take my own life

There seemed no point in it at the time

because I felt that even that

which seemed an ultimate escape

would be no escape at all

just a void

a black hole

That would continue to suck me dry

Then I remember the words of love

Written upon all of those pages

The words I had known before

but forgotten

As if a cloud covered over that part of my mind

I remembered the words of love

written across those pages

across my heart

I had stopped fighting

but Love never stopped fighting for me

Instead Love knelt over my bed every night

Love prayed for that tiny step of faith

and when I finally took that step

Love was there to carry me the rest of the way

I am now more than I used to be

Every morning I am more

Love has turned me into a Phoenix

Rising from my own ashes

And into the glory of the Son