So I was sitting in the ER yesterday. (Long story short I was having some issues with my kidneys, but nothing major, really no worries I was back home that night.) I was sitting with my mom and across the waiting room was a mother with her daughter. Her daughter was still very young, she looked about one (come to find out she had just turned one). At one point I had to move over closer to where this little girl sat. My mom had stepped outside to talk to someone on her phone and I mentioned to the little girls mother how her daughter was so well behaved. We started chatting and the little girl walks right up to me and puts her arms up to sit on my lap. I almost started crying right there in that lobby as I picked her up and sat her on my lap. Her mother looked at me in astonishment and said "She never does that with anybody she doesn't know." The little girl got back down and walked back to her mother, and until they were called to the back, (the poor little girl had bumped her head on a book shelf at preschool) she just walked back and forth between us. Sometimes sitting on my lap and sometimes on her mothers.
Now I understand why I'm so drawn to stories about adoption. I always have been. On Grey's anatomy it tugged on my heart when Derek and Meredith adopted Zoey, and that was just a TV show! The past week I've been received more and more hints from God about adopting kids. It's opening my eyes to just how much He has placed the idea of adoption on my heart. Last week I was watching the View and it talked about this couple who adopted five siblings from peru. Then I watched The Strange Life of Timothy Green last night. I was bawling my eyes out by the end of the movie. I recently was browsing some blogs and came upon one talking about a couple with their own children trying to adopt a young boy from another country(I believe Libya, but I'm not 100% sure). They talked about the struggles because they said there was a ban on adoption that would not be lifted until spring. How they longed for them to be with their family over Christmas. God is opening my heart up to this idea more and more. My heart could love any child that God puts in my life. I can so easily see that now. I feel like God is preparing me. He is preparing me to accept many different children into my life, whether it's the ones I adopt or just children who need someone to love them where they are at. Now I'm starting to understand where God is taking me and it's somewhere beautiful.
"Somebody found me here
Somebody held my breath
Somebody saved me from the world you left
If you're gonna cry my tears
If you're gonna hold my breath
If you're gonna let me see the sun you set
Oh I am lost and found
Oh I am lost and found"
Lost and Found by Katie Herzig
